For a long time Mothers Day was a holiday I wished did not exist.
I avoided it--like the plague.
My husband and I would go away and spend the day away from everyone, and pretend that it wasn't Mothers Day.
See, I wasn't a mother.
I wished that I was,
But I wasn't.
I would have moved heaven and earth to be a mother,
But I couldn't.
Then, a little over seven years ago all that changed.
For the first time in my life I was a Mother.
Suddenly, Mother's Day was something good, not just a painful reminder.
My life has never been the same.
But, there is a part of me that will never forget.
What Mothers Day feels like when you aren't a mother.
The pain is gone, but the memory is still there.
For those of you that are waiting.
That feel like it will never happen to you.
Please know that I understand.
Happy Mothers Day!